I am really coming to learn that there is never one answer to anything. Everything is a combination of spirit, emotion and our physical bodies.
Querida has been suffering a lot this year with her breathing. Currently (May 2024) she is breathing at a rate of 18-20 breaths per minute. Very shallow.
This is not new. But it is a bit more severe this year. It could be linked to the wet winter and spring and the associated wet growing grass and herbs.
Increases in blood sugar happen at this time of year, sometimes creating laminitis, but at the very least tender feet. All combined with shedding and coming into season, is a lot for the body to cope with, especially if you are also struggling to pull in enough oxygen.
What to do?
First, I asked Michaela to connect to her. This is what she felt in the first session :
“My chest felt heavy, labouring to breathe from full chest. Just using top.
She showed a shadow over chest area and a ‘band’ that went under her arm pit.
Bottom of throat felt slightly inflamed and irritated.
Left sinus, particularly side of nostril up to head.
To me reminiscent of when I ate apples and had a reaction.
She showed me eating something from a bowl?
Emotionally she’s feeling weighed down, ‘stuck in the mud’, not literally.
Lethargic. Same old, same old.
I gave her some light. She has a lot in her, it was just over shadowed. Re ignited very quickly and moved the shadow on.
The band will need follow up help“.
From this I was able to consider a couple of things. I had felt the stuck in the mud feeling to, in myself. A little bit of shared feelings there, so I worked with myself on that feeling and released it. I also spent some time with her with oils, to open her airways a little, and after a few days away I came back and changed some of her herbs, replacing plantain with chamomile and adding mullein to her feed.
Querida felt lighter after the session, but when I got back from a few days away she again felt a bit laboured with her breathing so I asked Michaela to do another session with her. Afterwards we spoke about the session and what revealed themselves. There was still a bit of irritation in the throat and the breathing still happening very shallowly, so physically not much change. She did not feel grounded so Michaela opened her caudal (tail) to enable grounding at this point. In addition, Querida showed Michaela a past life as a post pony or horse, breathing in lots of sand and dust as she ran. So we are looking at something that has come through from past life – the sense of breathing shallowly so as not to take in too much dust.
Another important point that Michaela sensed is that Querida really struggles with releasing and letting go of stuff. She holds on to emotions. I have felt this with her before as well; sadness and anger are held in a well within her.
After this session I did three sessions with Querida. The first was just helping her to join me in the present moment and show me how unpeaceful she was. This session I did with her alone. All I do is create a space where she can join me and show me how she feels. She could not ground easily or release much physically. The second session was very similar but with the herd helping and also including the crystal Amazonite. The video is a little clip that shows how it was all coming together.
Blue light started to flow through but when the crystal light and vibration came to her lungs she struggled to ‘allow’ and quite a lot of resistance came up both physcially and emotionally. The session was over an hour and there was the start of a flow of energy from front to back and down through the feet when we stopped to rest and process. Notice when Timmy tries to help by pointing with his nose to her tail and stamping his foot “Release!”. Also he puts his tail to her tail briefly.
All of these sessions touched on her physical and emotional status. Now we go towards the spiritual.
We rested for 48 hours and this morning everything felt lighter when I connected with her. I also felt the pull of a deeper session including a crystal of petriifed wood, and the vibration of the sea. The sea felt so right, the amount of oxygen available being a lot higher. It took a few seconds to find the right music vibration to create the space.
I invited her to join me on the shores.
“We dropped energetically into the rhythms and felt into the lack of breath. We felt how it is okay to breathe deeper here and now, to take a breath deep into the body, to let go of the shallow breaths, to let go of the protection from all that we tried to keep out of our lungs, to let go of all that is holding on and not allowing us to breathe.
I stepped back and we watched as many Querida’s started to walk away up the beach. The petrified wood was warm and I could sense its vibration as it took in the past energy. Querida and I stood together breathing in the sea air, watching. An ending, and a beginning. All endings moving into the wood.
We turned toward the sea. A sense of the throat opening. A lump in the throat. Sensing the lump start to melt. It is of many things. The sea air washes in and out of the body like the waves / the tide.
A feeling of opening at the root as the sea washes through and takes everything.
Suddenly I sense the herd, the donkeys, and the dolphins all holding space, streaming out love as if there is no end. Tears. The rhythm of the sea creating a flow of energy.
Walking together into a new life, this life, now and whatever comes next. Then letting her walk alone, walk away with love. She glows white and golden as she walks towards the sun.”
Now to rest again and see where the universe leads us all.