It is over a week since we did the last healing session with Querida, awakening her to self-healing. Everything we have talked about in our meditative sessions has been a suggestion that Querida can work with or not. The herd (particularly Timmy) have helped, nudging Querida to accept support and the suggestions.
I was in the field with her this evening when she bought my attention to her breathing. She was bringing her breaths in quite deeply. I could feel that and see it, but it was still hard work. It felt laboured, but she was trying. I suggested a session to her and by the time I got back indoors she was connecting with me, so we went in to a healing session.
Again this is a session which is sharing suggestions to Querida. I can’t fix her, only create a space of sharing and listening. Michaela opened up grounding and release points with Querida during one of Querida’s first sessions with regards to her breathing, and since then our sessions have worked with suggesting releases, clearing the lungs, and awakening Querida to releasing the emotions and stories she is holding on to that are causing her breathing issues. I am working through Shamanic Medicine Meditation sessions as I connect with Querida, exploring the power of this area of healing, connecting with all the elements, and any animals that come into the session, following what they are showing me and Querida. In addition there is material help being given with herbs that are helping to open up the airways, and oils to help with inflammation.
This is what this session showed us.
At first there was a sense of grounding all points, feet, nose & tail. This was a great start. Then Querida dropped her head, relaxing her whole body and it seemed like she seperated from her body. The body was now on a pedastal which was turning. We looked at all sides of her body. Sides blowing out. Deep breaths, but like taking two short breaths in and one out.
We went inside and looked at two big clean sacks ready to receive air, but struggling to fill them up. Moving up the lungs now and into the airways. A phlegm like feeling in the throat, like wanting to cough something up, but it is stuck.
We hold space there. Just watch the area. The stuckness.
A feeling of grief and sadness comes up. It wants to slide away and hide, but we keep a focus on it. We struggle to hold it but we do. We hold it in a bubble of love. Love it. “We want to set you free”, we say.
A sense of fear comes up in the stomach. That is okay. There is nothing to fear. We keep blowing love onto the bubble. It surrounds a caterpillar, clinging on, not wanting to change.
We wait and watch just loving the caterpillar.
Querida then moves back to her body and breaths deeply, widening and opening the throat. The throat expands. The ball of love with the caterpillar inside is riding up the throat. Now at the back of the mouth. The jaw releases and opens.
A yawn comes up and out releasing the ball of love with the caterpillar inside. It drops into my hands. Slowly opening the hands and a butterfly flies away.
Another yawn / releasing. More yawns.
A heaviness felt in the chest. It turns into a yawn. Again and again. An energy release down the legs through the feet that leaves her feeling a little wobbly. More yawns, lots.
Rest now. Laying down now. Lots of butterflies surround her. She sleeps. The butterflies move on.
I leave her surrounded in a yellow light, caressing and gently wafting over her.